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erin

I'm Erin Jo. I'm thinking, writing, dreaming, mothering, loving, living, praising, BLESSED to be Fiona to my Shrek and Mommy to my four amazing kiddos.

dave

dave

Shrek is "like an onion with many layers" but has a heart of gold. He's my husband and my friend, and we just get better all the time.

lily

lily

Lily is my first baby and only girl. She's smart, funny, tall and kind. Keeping up with this girl is a challenge and a joy. She's terrific!

max

max

Max is one part ogre, two parts lover and all boy! Our little man has a temper but gives the best hugs of anyone I know!

colby

colby

Colby is as ornery as he looks. He flirts shamelessly, even with strangers. He's all mouth and curls and the loudest by far.

luke

luke

Luke is the baby of the family, but holds his own. He's happy and adorable. And he's a terrible sleeper. =)

Give Way

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So here I am. Actually, here I am with the littlest man, as adorable as he is ornery, and that says a lot.

I know. I’ve been lost. Truly. It’s been one of those month-long ebbs, with occasional bursts of sunshine. Mostly, things just ebb and ebb, and nothing will flow. I’m not on sabbatical, I’m not taking a siesta or a break. I’ve been in the pits, for the most part. And that’s okay. Because I’m human, and these lives we have are complicated and heavy at times.

I believe in letting a funk take its course, for the most part. Sometimes the bootstraps are just broken. Or out of reach. And you can’t pull yourself up, but it’s okay. You tie the knot and hang on, even if that rope becomes a thread. And, sometimes, you let go. If you’ve got the right people around you or just the right beliefs, you’ll make it. If what you know to be true is enough, you’ll be all right.

And so I am. I’m picking my way carefully through the minefield of this funk. The calendar is so incredibly full for this family, and there will be no rest for the captain. And so I trudge on, occasionally skipping, sometimes crawling on my hands and knees. But I’m getting there, and so are the busy little reasons.

I’m starting to see the upswing. For one thing, volleyball started for me tonight. I love the competitive camaraderie and the kickass workout. And I just finished the most amazing book — Family Pictures by Jane Green. I had goosebumps at the conclusion and relished in that satisfying thud of closing the back cover for the final time. God, I love a good story. While I am incredibly busy at work, it’s honest and efficient activity that engages my brain and makes the day fly. New seasons of my favorite shows start soon. And I know there’s at least one glass of wine left in the fridge.

There is much to say, to update. I have so many awesome photos from this summer. For now, it will suffice to say the kids are fine. Momma’s here, mothering through the darkness and on her way back to true cheerfulness.

The ebb will give way, and the flow will begin again. I believe it will.

2 Responses

  1. julie mayle says:

    Nice writing. I just commented on one of my friends page tonight about how I love that she is such a normal mom. Meaning she post about raising 5 kids, how tuff it is to get breakfast for 5 now out the door to school, to get 5 to dr appointments. This is the first year they are all in school. Her one son has Wilms cancer, although he is in remission it still requires lots of extra drs. So, to read this it just reminds me that life is life and all of us have our moments.. not so good, good, great, awesome and sometimes just ebb. Great writing Erin. Hold on or not.. you have all the right people to catch you or at least keep you from hitting the ground too hard. Love you and love the picture.

  2. Jessica Yost says:

    Glad you are rising from the funk…this really hit home with me. You are one wise mama! It is amazing to me, just how much sleeping every night can make the funk go away…for me. Stay strong warrior mother! I love ya!I checked your blog last night, b/c I thought to myself “I haven’t seen one for awhile,” and woke up this morning to a beautiful entry:) Thank you for the inspiration:)

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